Splurge

I finally did it;

I conformed, and bought an iphone4.

So basically, from now until forever, I shall be well and truly, broke.

I make the homeless look rich.

I love it, absoultely love it. So pretty, and shiney and new. Oh please don't break!!

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Nothing is working for me today. My net is lagging, skins wouldn't load, pottermore is "overloaded" and my phone won't send/receive anything! (Thankyou Virgin!)

Perhaps the universe is telling me to start my bail application. Law is being such a drag lately.

Oh procrastination, why you plague me so?

Re: An interview with someone far more interesting than myself

A practice exercise for journalism, interview someone in the class that you weren’t “friends” with. I like that my lecturer thinks I actually have “friends”. A practice exercise for the “real deal”, practicing in an attempted to get published or exposure or something. Anyway, naturally I decided to procrastinate from said journalism assignment (posted below) by discussing this practice exercise.

To be quite frank, it scared the hell out of me. You see, doing a double degree, I am split in two. I am half as motivated, driven and successful I feel, as my colleagues doing just one degree. This person that I interviewed, it doing so much better than I, hell, the guy sitting next to me stoned off his face has a better clue about the industry than I do.

I have no connections. In either field. Both parents strictly financial, I feel rather lost attempted to forge my own path.

I feel I am not achieving or succeeding in the sightliest. This mindset being my worst enemy, feeding the twin demons of procrastination and sluggishness. And in this inacomplishment I feel empty, alone, depressed even.

How can I be so far behind?

For example, this boy, let’s call him Louie, already has a job directly in the industry, he already has his dream job. Another, let’s call her Margaret, has been contacted by a publishing company regarding a book she wants to write.

Are you fucking kidding me?


I don’t want be another suburban housewife fading into the dusty shadows; I want to be covered in glitter, shining so bright in the spotlight, that it burns peoples fucking corneas out just attempting to look in my direction.

Local news fail?

Calls to fast track road developments to ease the squeeze on local roads

You only have to mention the words “Narellan Road” and motorists will cringe. The congestion and grid lock has been described by Camden’s major, Greg Warren as the “Bane of motorists.”

Residents did receive a glimmer of hope, that the day to day traffic congestion would soon be eased. With the release of last week’s state budget, the Camden populace was pleased to see funding going into much needed road infrastructure. Yet, despite welcoming the developments, Warren argues that the “least” the state government can do is fast track the developments. Residents are fed up and tired of waiting. A review of the road simply is not enough.

“I’d like to ease the squeeze as quickly as possible.”

This change has all come about after years of complaints and frustration voiced from locals as they’ve watched the area develop without vital infrastructure, many applauding that some action has finally been taken, despite a lack the of a commandment date.

Currans Hill resident, Amy McKee, stated the Macarthur reign was defiantly feeling the strain on its resources, and welcomes the developments, particularly to local Narellan Road. “It’s not uncommon for me to spend 40 minutes in traffic, just to reach the F5. It’s an absolute nightmare”

Warren agrees, claiming it’s truly “remarkable”, the time it can take to travel Narellan road, since it’s less than 10km’s in length. Now we just need to see the work fast tracked.
Warren also encourages residents to visit the website www.saferoadsnws.com.au to voice concerns of the40km/h school zone on Narellan road.

Roads minister Duncan Gay said it was a way in which the government planned to “remove the frustration for motorists”. And that he was keen to see the road undergo a review, next March.

MP Chris Patterson described the school zone as a nuisance to commuters, stating that “there are 40,000 motorists a day who would like to see it reviewed.” Calling for the entrance of the school to be relocated, it’s all about improving flow and safety. This being the “first step in the process which will enable work to begin... infrastructure is the way to encourage and grow our economy.”

Catherine field’s resident and 2nd year UWS Medical student, Dean Zinghini agrees, “Macarthur is such a fast growing areas, with all the new developments going in, I don’t know how the area’s infrastructure, particularly roads, will be able to cope with such a fast population increase. Especially with expansion of UWS, delays for commuters are sure to be more frequent and extended.”

This all adds to the air of apprehension and uncertainty in the future as residents can see the mass boom in population and the pressure this is placing on its resources. This is not an issue which can be ignored.

This is not the time for procrastination.

Word vomit.

Too tired to think, Too tired to do anything.
I feel like I cant cope lately. Everythings falling to pieces and
Im trying my best to hold it together as it all crumbles before my eyes.
Drowning in a sea of things, problems, people.

Im fine. Really, Everything's just peachy.

First world problems

Story of my life..

Current Lusts:

1. Mac Mineralised skin finish in Rose Quartz
2. “G” Harajuki Perfume
3. Mac “Rebel” Lipstick
4. Lancôme’s hypnose Doll Eyes Mascara
5. Ipad
6. Sleek Blushes
7. Another piercing or something somewhat
8. Falls festival tickets

Define Sane

I wrote this over a year ago, I was never really sure whether to publish it. It’s one of those things that are never quite perfect; you're never 100% happy with it. Tired of it sitting in my drafts file, I spent yet another sleepless night reworking something that really, in the great scheme of things, isn’t really important.

However, I feel mental illness is particularly neglected, people thing, what do they have to complain about? I think it goes much deeper than that, to the extend where sufferers, fight and struggle within themselves to admit they need help.



Afraid perhaps that no one will answer.

Please, just tell someone,

Anyone.




Women and Philosophy, I don’t think the two mix very well. Not saying that women shouldn’t be educated or that men aren’t sensitive. Women I feel, just already tend to think quite a bit more. And it can become a dangerous thing.

Aside from it being, basically an interesting waste of time in today’s society. It seems, to particularly lead to premature death in women, romantic, melodramic but nevertheless,

death.


Sylvia Plath who wrote 'the blood jet is poetry' was inextricably connected to her poems, the more she put into them, the more it pulled from her, and BAM! Head in an oven, dead.

I blame philosophy, well more particularly in the form of poetry. The more women think, the close they come to death. The Sylvia Plath effect- secretly or even openly, as soon as you have a taste of the work of this remarkable woman you will be hooked on every word she speaks. Also the misinterpretation of these ideas may have something to do with it.

I am not kidding it should be an actual disorder. The Plath syndrome.

Seriously.


I recently finished her only novel, The Bell Jar, written beautifully, as always I may add.
Moving it was, to say the least, it gives an insight into mental illness, unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, something like the novel the Catcher in the Rye; however this one does not make you depressed just by reading it.


“I want to be important. By being different. And these girls are all the same.”


She just hits a nerve. The saddest thing about suicide, perhaps, is the unfulfilled potential. The forgotten people left behind... Children, family, lovers.


Caged by their minds. We all are, to some extent, victims of this.
Virginia Woolf? Great theologist, great feminist. Manically depressed? Perhaps... whatever the reason may be, she stacked her dress with rocks and passionately drowned in a river.
Hegel- ignorance of mind cages humans. Just as little is seen in pure light as in pure darkness.
Key to the cage, we are all trapped inside our minds.
Human reason as a means to seek truth is delusional; we are all prisoners of language.






Ah insecurities, they affect us all don’t they?

Sleep Procrastination

The thing you do when you know you are supposed to be doing something... like an assignment or three.

Quite suddenly you are extremely tired and BAM!

Sleep procrastination.

You can't stress over not doing things that you're not aware of right?

Jellybean

Dedicated to one of my newest friends.

You are the reason I dont let people read my blog.

Or journal in public.

STOP LAUGHING AND ME!

But keep making me laugh

and smile

and keeping me entertained in fairly dull subjects :)

Awkward-ness

The moment when you can't even answer ONE question on your practice exam..

Rather, you spent 90 minutes re-writting the questions (so you look like you know something), writing possible blog posts, staring at the wall, and playing hangman.

Perhaps I should pay more attention, I mean its week five, and clearly I havent learnt a thing.


Maths, science, law, logic. *mind blown* WHY DEAR GOD WHY DOES THIS SUBJECT EXIST!?

20 things i'd rather be doing...

1. sleeping
2. organising my mess of a life
3. eating jelly beans
4. kissing boys - then crying over it.
5. painting my nails
6. stabing myself in the eye.. with a spoon
7. listening to triple j
8. reading blogs
9. writing blogs.. oh wait.
10. shopping
11. rolling down a grass hill
12. getting tanned
13. doing something constructive, ie attempting to solve a rubix cube, like you know life changing stuff..
14. running around
15. laughing
16. dreaming, day dreaming, nightmaring
17. colour coding shit
18. base jumping
19. journaling
20. writing endless "to do" lists, then ignore them